My saviour

You know that time when things just seem to pass you by and you feel all alone, even though you have everything, but you can't help to look into the future? You wonder where your going to be in a few years, the way the family is going. You realise you have just over a year of school left and you'll have to start all over. Your good friend plans to move away and you wonder what life is going to be like without them. You deny it! but there is always doubt and that kills you. Friends dont seem as close even though they are. You feel like your searching! Your out of your comfort zone, but you have so many things going on to keep yourself occupied. In the end though you know everything is ok, you've just had a late night and tomorrow is always better:), life continues and Jesus is still my saviour. So you wait it out! and in the end everything is fine.

Mothers Day

Man I felt bad this morning, when I totally walked past mum a few times, asked her where something was and sat on the computer for about half an hour. It wasn't untill I looked on Google that I realised it was mothers day!!!!!!! total horror! Even though Mum asked of nothing since she got a new car, I didn't even say Happy Mothers Day!So trying to make it better, I had to quickly make a card on the computer, and then decided to walk down to the deli and get some flowers. Turns out all the good flowers were an extra $1 then I had bought, so I had to buy the last bunch of pink flowers, whcih of course just happened to be half dead. To make it even worse, as I was walking home with them MUM drives past in the car. Gahhhhhh I nearly cried, that was an epic fail. And. when mum got home and I gave her my wilted flowers, with my computer made card, she replies with " If you hadn't got anything, you could have atleast said 'Happy Mothers Day'", which made me feel even worse then I already did.So ofcourse trying not to indicate I had forgotten, I tried to promote that it was a surprise. In the end though, the day was quite nice. Relatives came over and I had a great time with my cousin. I made up for mum by doing chores. I hope she forgives and forgets!

hahah lol, no one reads theseeee, but o well, this is my expressing timmes. WOOOO holidaysss, actually im not that excited the term has gone waaaayy to fast, and i have no plans for the hols. Anywhoo i think inheritence is a bummer, i have inherited my dads stupid blood noseiness when its hot. I had 2 fricken blood noses today. And it means i can't catch the bus home anymore, unless I want a blood nose every day afterschool! annoyed asss!!!^^^^!!!!

Baptism

Well the thing is, i'm kind of struggling to take the courage to get baptised. There are many reasons urging me forwards and many backwards. The thing is to many people will think bits of my story will seem wierd, unusual and freaky and i probably would aswell if I had never gone through it. No one really knows the extent of it. None knows what i'm talking about, people know bits of the story, but its hard to get ur head around, i dont wan't everyone to think im a freak.

stupid reactions

He is a fool. Its alright when your expecting someone that you know close, or someone that you've done something to lash out at you. But unexpected reasons hurt the most. I view you differently, even though you don't care, and i shouldn't care because its not much to anyone else's eyes but, I took it personally and you havn't made an effort to apologise, so why waste my time with you. btw just because I don't react often doesn't mean every person can critiscise. i learnt a song on guitar I AM PROUD of myself!

I've cooled down alot. Is actually quite amazing how much study you can do when you put your mind to it. I feel quite accomplished actually. I seriously can't explain something that is so riduclasly awsome and stupid at the same time! night all

Ahh im soo annoyed with myself, once again i didn't do what I had planned, get a grip women. Some things aren't worth putting all your efforts into, it takes 2 to tango. I just wish I sticked to what I knew was best, rather then making a mess of things. Over people doing things on purose for attention, CONTINUOUSLY!, when you can see right through them, don't play me. I missed the bus becuz a cow wudnt let me go! Year 8's need to grow the hell up. Advice is good, but don't assume publically and be a hipicrit about it. I really wan't to be in aerial playing guitar, but I'm not good enough!