Organisation

Weeks are pretty packed. Tuesday's tutoring, Wednesday guitar lessons, Friday's Easter Production rehearsal and Youth yewww, Saturdays work all day and Sunday rowing probs and actually spending some time with friends for once:), not to mention the 3 hours of homework every night aswell as tests and assignments. Tee is tough, but I enjoy what I do, organisation in the key, you have to have a balance in your life and you'll be fine!

Things are good:)

About from the fam, life seems pretty good. I got the teachers i wanted for most of my subjects, can't wait till youth starts i need to get back on track, friends are amazing, few new people too which is good:), 11/8's is sweet i got a great partener and i love my group, helping people feels wonderful. Not working might actually be good, joining scouts might be a good idea lol. If I actually put my head down and study this year, next year will be easier, I know now that i actually want to go to curtin and study nursing to become a midwife:), now i just need to get the marks.

Desperate for change

I really need to get out of this situation, the situation being my family and I.. I would rather go to boarding school then have to live here, there is no life here for me, although it would be extremely hard to leave my friends i cannot even imagine that, most my time is spent at home anyways. Although alot of people would say they are the best parents you could have!!!!!!!!! I do not see that, and no one is me so you do not know how they change towards me. I JUST WANT A NORMAL LIFE WITH A FAMILY THAT DOES NOT CARE AND TREATS EVERYONE THE SAME.My Job will be gone in a few days thanks to them, then how am i supposed to earn money. My parents keep telling me that year 11 and 12 are the most important of your life which i know is true, and dont worry you don't need money. But i have news for them , i want to move out and I need money for that so why can't they just leave me fucking alone and get on with there lives. The reason why I am soo pissed off is because my immature, goody tooshoes brother, who rats on me and everything i do/ am going to do, who gets a fucking (birthday present)8 months after his birthday all this shit they make up comes into this room and stares at the computer screen to annoy me all the time.He has came in atleast 15 times in the past minute. If I don't get my laptop back which i paid thousands of dollars for and has been sitting at dad's work for over a year cause he can't be fucked, I am going to loose it.

Boys are very confusing

Boys are such a heartache. I'm really sick of playing the love/hate game with kieran. I can see every single thing i hate about him, mostly I hate how he brings you down with him, but despite this i still like him a little more then friends, mainly because our relationship is close enough to the relationship i'd like between a boyfriend. It makes it harder that my family actually like him and trust him and how he always writes bulletins about me. But he hurt me bad, i've moved on even if it doesn't seem like it, he can get over everything, all i want is for him to love me like a friend. Make sure i never go out with this guy. I know that if he is actually serious about committing suicide everything in my life will change, he knows every single thing about me i love him as a close friend. Josh Robinson I hate you with a passion! You played me, your a scum, as horrible as it sounds I hope your ball sucks so bad. Why do all the horrible, non- decent guys ask me out, all I wan't is a decent guy to ask me out, a christiaan boy or one who respects my beliefs is great, i'll see what happens.

first blog - this one means alot tis a mixture

There becomes a point in your life when you realize things have to change. And everything that you cared about soo much before means nothing. You never really realize why certain things you did annoyed people until you stop doing them and get annoyed for the same reason. I now realize the most important things in my life and what I need to do to achieve them. If you play me, you will never have my full love. You’ll know the days when I just want to be left alone. You never get anywhere without making the first move, life becomes a lot better when you are aware of yourself and your beliefs and intensions- when other people are making them for you, you get lost!